Step 2 A.R.T.S.

Step Two

Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

Step Two Essay

“Blocking out our Gifts and/or great parts of our life to be unlived is insane. We hurt ourselves with our need to block. We constantly say “no” when we should be saying “yes.” The need to isolate, to not join, to not try, to drop out, go it alone, and push others away is our way of staying safe.”

Sanity is a measure of emotional stability rather than an objective behavior pattern. Your mentor cannot restore your sanity any more than your teachers could. The step implys that I was once sane. If thats the case I need to find that memory otherwise how will i know when I am restored? When my behavior matches that of my neighbors?
I hope not. When my emotions aren’t spiking and plunging I will consider myself sane.

This creative impulse which exists within us all has been stymied by my avoidant behavior. This deliberate retardation of a natural impulse has caused emotional turmoil. I can’t seem to fix it myself. The same brain that has adopted these negative traits cannot find it’s way past without help. There has to be a power greater than just myself. I can’t do it alone.

By paying attention in the meetings and reading the A.R.T.S. literature I can find points of identification with my fellow artists. Once aligned in this manner I can follow the logic presented. If it worked for them it can work for me. Slowly I can come to believe that sanity is a possibility for me. What I can’t do alone we can do together. As much as I may need isolation I need you too. Finding a balance between self reliance and the open minded acceptance of others is a positive step toward allowing a power greater than myself to restore me to sanity.

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